32 weeks

32 weeks today...only about 8 weeks to go!

I had my appointment on Wednesday. I gained 4.8 pounds since my last appointment, so my weight gain seems to be right on track (I've really worried that I haven't been gaining enough with this pregnancy...I'm up 20.8 pounds, though, so I should definitely hit the 25-35 pound goal). My blood pressure is still PERFECT which is an absolute shock and blessing. I'm sure the stress of Hazen's upcoming deployment and not knowing if Ian would be born before he left had an influence on that last time, though.

I forgot to ask what position she is in, which really frustrates me. I think I'm going to start some of the "spinning babies" exercises anyway. Couldn't hurt, even if she is head down, right? The things I feel are odd, and I just can't figure out what I'm feeling. Her hiccups are extremely low in my abdomen, just above my pelvis. I can feel a lump at the top of my uterus, but haven't been able to figure out if it's her head or her bottom. Supposedly if you push on the head, that will be the only thing to move. If you push on the bottom, the entire body will move. I have a stubborn baby, and if I push on it, nothing moves. I also have some body part wrapped around my right side which is not comfortable. It's long and hard, so I'm guessing a leg or an arm. But I really have no idea.

I am feeling nervous about a c-section. I don't know why I'm feeling that way this time...the thought never even crossed my mind with Little Man. I'm hoping that my worry about it isn't some sign that it's going to happen. I am really wanting a "natural" birth this time...no labor inducing drugs, freedom to walk around, bounce on my ball, use the bathroom, no pain meds. So maybe that is increasing my worry that I'll need a c-section? Plus, the fact that we will be moving so shortly after her birth (she's due March 25...we are likely moving mid-late April) means that a c-section CAN NOT happen. I need to be able to drive, and so I think I'm worrying about that possibility, too. I need to take a breath and think positively...pheeeeew.

I'm ordering the last of my newborn-15 pounds diapers next week. I can't wait to get it ALL and take pictures of my entire stash. I have quite a bit already, but am missing some necessities (diaper covers, for example!). In my cart is 24 small GMD (Green Mountain Diapers) prefolds, 5 Thirsties Duo covers, two pail liners, pins, Snappis, one small AIO (all-in-one) Bum Genius, and two medium AIO Bum Genius. That combined with all the goodies I have (and my 13 one-size pockets that will be usable around 10 pounds) should have us mostly set with our diapers. So far, the grand total for cloth diapering is $319. I still need to get a few more pockets, and I will likely pick up some fitteds and more covers along the way, but since I have the VAST majority of my diapering supplies now (or will once I place next week's order!), I think it's safe to say that we will save a significant amount of money by using cloth over disposables. I am SO EXCITED to never have to think "do we need diapers?" when we walk into the grocery store.

My next appointment is February 23. At that point, I get my super fun GBS test done (yay) and will be checked for dilation. I cannot believe that at my next appointment, I am going to be checked. It just seems way too soon...I'm in complete denial that I am this close to being a mommy of two!