9 weeks, 3 days

Moving right along. The morning sickness is still terrible. I'm sitting here willing myself to not need to throw up. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't...I'm not feeling too hopeful for today. Sigh.

My belly is already poofing out. Definitely not bloat...it's here all day now. I'm shocked at how much quicker this happens the second time around! I know I've just got the look like I need to lay off the junk (which cracks me up since I've LOST four pounds!), but at least I'm closer to having an obvious baby belly. I'll have to get some pictures up soon.

My husband has been so incredible. Our marriage has gone through some major ups and downs in the last few years. It wasn't the best when I was pregnant with Ian, but I didn't realize it then. It's amazing how different it is to be at a great point in marriage during pregnancy. I couldn't see how not "great" we were then until now, if that makes any sense. I don't know how to thank Hazen enough for all he has done for me this pregnancy. He is so helpful and so patient without even being asked. I am really blessed. :)

So THIS is morning sickness...

I admit, I had it pretty easy with Ian. I was nauseas a lot, but I didn't really throw up. This time is different. At least it has gotten bad enough that I now feel like Baby is doing just fine.

I had this wonderful dinner planned for yesterday. I had the slow cooker going all day with my homemade refried beans. Big mistake. HUGE mistake. A slow cooker filled with beans, onion, garlic, and cumin when your sense of smell is like a hound dog is not smart. Not smart at all. By the time the beans were done, all happy feelings I had started my day with were gone. I was throwing up, I was disgusted, I had to clean the dishes as quickly as possible to get rid of the smell. Ugh.

Today I went to the store and bought a can of beans. No joke. Forget healthy eating...it does me no good if I can't even get it passed my lips! And the thought of my homemade ones make me nauseas, so that's not gonna happen. I even made my homemade guacamole, but it's kind of yucky. I use Hass avocados for my guac. For some reason, the store I went to just had these strange looking avocados that I would have thought were some kind of papaya or something (I don't know what a papaya looks like...these avocados are how I imagine them, though!). They're way too sweet. I don't know how to describe the tast of an avocado but "sweet" is not it.

Calling Monday if the nausea doesn't start to subside. I'm having a very hard time leaving the couch and I have a little boy with a birthday fast approaching. I need to be functional for him. I took some B6 this morning, and that seemed to help a little. The nausea is come and go rather than constant, but it's still way too frequent to make me happy. I've been eating sour candies, and those work until I swallow them. At 140 calories per 6 candies, I can't just eat those all day. Ginger Ale has the same effect...great, until my glass is empty.

Ugh...

6 weeks 5 days

And we have a heartbeat!!! 140bpm and measuring absolutely perfect. How is it possible to be so in love with something soooo tiny (crown to rump as of today: a whopping 0.83cm)??