Adoption

We've talked about adoption. It's something we would like to do in the future, when our kids are older. It's something I've considered may be the only way of expanding our family since, medically, I don't know how far I am willing to go to have another biological child.

Last night I had a dream that we adopted a brother and a sister. And today, I woke up with this incredible peace knowing that if that is the only way our family can expand, that's okay. I'll be okay. The point is not pregnancy and newborns, though I absolutely LOVED and miss those times, the point is a house full of happy, thriving children. How they get here really doesn't matter.

So I've spent time seriously researching adoption for the first time. We've talked about Africa and China, and so I looked more into that. The cost has been a big hindrance in our minds, but today I found out there are special loans available specifically to aide in adoption, and there is also a pretty large tax credit that would off-set a very large portion of the cost. So the money factor (or the lack of it) has become less important.

It's not something we're going to jump into today. For one thing, being in our current location for such a short amount of time really makes this not the ideal time. For another, I want Ian to always be my oldest child, but I don't want to set our age requirements so low. We are going to continue trying, I will go see my doctor this month like I'm supposed to, and we will decide how far we are willing to go. But if it doesn't happen, it doesn't feel like it will be the end of the world (at least not today!).

So, when we adopt in the future, I will be okay with it. If it happens years down the road after another biological baby or two, or if it happens fairly soon without anymore biological children, I'll be okay.