Cycle Day 21

And I am still waiting to ovulate. I get so annoyed at having long cycles. I still haven't made my appointment with my PCM either...I really need to get on that. It's hard to schedule these appointments. I don't want an annual to interfere with my ovulating (that goo they use is not very TTC friendly!) and I also don't ever know exactly when to expect my period. It really stinks to get it scheduled and have to call and re-schedule! Oh well.

My OPKs are still as negative as negative gets. My CM and CP are starting to do more exciting things, though, so I'm hopeful for a positive or almost positive today. I've been using the Preseed and I hope it is helping. I just hope to ovulate before I run out!

I've been thinking about trying to get pregnant with Ian a lot lately. It took 22 months of me being off birth control to get pregnant with our miscarriage. It took another 6 months of active trying to get pregnant with Ian. I feel like we are behind this time around. I know I can't compare the two, but we have been ACTIVELY trying since October 2008...that's 18 months! And there were about 5 months before that of if it happens it happens.

I know that combined Hazen and I have problems, but those problems aren't so big that we shouldn't be able to get pregnant. Granted it will take a *little* longer, but it should still happen. My tube is open, my endo is cauterized. His swimmers are lazy and the liquefaction is an issue, but none of these problems are THAT big. I don't know. I guess I'm just putting too much hope into the Preseed being our "cure". I've been putting off more invasive treatments because I just don't want to go that route. But I don't know how much longer I'm willing to go without a pregnancy either.

Ugh...if I would just ovulate I think I would feel more cheerful!